What's getting me through...

would have to be my iPhone4s. Because I can receive my email, facebook notifications along with instagram, a camera and my texts all in one place, this is my most beloved product! I will never go back to Blackberry or any other type of phone. This phone does everything! Well today I got these bow dust plugs for the headphone outlet and it is so adorable! It definitely tops off the phone and makes it thee cutest accessory. 

Lonely

It's only the beginning of this underway but I feel so, so alone. Tonight I reached out to another girlfriend whose boyfriend is in the same rack area as mine and she was alright but I think everyone has those days. I just miss him so much and I cannot explain it more than that. I hope the next few weeks speeds by. I know I'm repetitive and all sad, I'm sorry. I needed to vent tonight and this is the only way I know how.

This is the worst..

I really hope my boyfriend gets home soon! I miss him more than anything and it's only been about a week! Plus, I have really bad cramps and he usually takes care of me when I can barely do anything. I miss holding him, being held, kissing, hugging, laughing together, smiling for no reason, going on adventures, watching TV, and just being together. I feel so alone when he's not here and I don't mean physically but when he's not on land, I feel empty and incomplete. He's my world and I cannot stand being apart for a month. I know that I have to get used to this and I knew what I was getting into but sometimes it is so unfair. I see some girls and women with their significant others and they get to be with them about every day if they'd like. But with us milso's, no, not happening until they're out of the military or during leave. During this underway we'll miss his first birthday since we've been together which I would've loved to celebrate with him. We'll still do something when he's back but it's not the same in my opinion. Before he left I asked him to leave me a general goodnight voice mail, so now every night before I go to sleep I listen to it and it helps so much and reassures me though I know it's pre-recorded. I just miss him so much and I know I'm rambling now so I'll go listen to my voice mail and head to bed since I still am in tons of pain. Goodnight! <3 xo

This may sound bad

Last night I started that time of the month and let me tell you, I truly hate being a woman sometimes. I get my monthly pretty bad though I am on birth control which is supposed to help. My cramps today are insane and I'm about doubled over every 2 minutes... It's like contractions lol. What's bad is- I'm most excited to not have my monthly when we get married and pregnant! I think that'll be one of my main favorites about being pregnant just because of how awful this monthly is. I know there are other consequences with pregnancy but in my opinion, not dealing with aunt flo would be amazing plus I'll get my baby after 9 months! I know this might sound awful or plain silly but I am in so much pain right now and being pregnant seems like the only cure LOL. 

Ironic

Right after I posted last night, I got an email! I swear at the most unexpected moments, you'll get what you've been expecting for the longest time. Tonight at the FRG meeting for Star's boat, I met another girlfriend who is incredibly sweet and pregnant. They're both sleeping in the torpedo room so I'm hoping Star and her boyfriend will meet. Because her boyfriend is an E5, they can live together off base without being married though she would like to get married now. They're in their 20's and it's really great to have another girlfriend friend on the boat. No offense to military wives, because I will shortly be one too, but sometimes military wives are a little intimidating and sometimes I feel so beneath them and think that they think less of me because I'm not as apt to stay committed when I totally am! It's just nice to have another woman who understands me and how I'm feeling. We're 4 days down with a little while to go until this underway is over but I feel like it'll go by very quickly! :)

A few days in

to this underway and I'm slightly starting to feel better. At the beginning of each underway I notice I get extremely anxious because I usually won't get an email until the 3rd day. Well for the past two nights I have gotten emails and tonight at the time when I usually get one, I didn't. I know the connection on subs is pretty awful and getting messages through to land is even worse but I just really miss my baby. He doesn't have port calls so I can't even hear his voice for the next month! I told him that before he left and he decided to leave me a general goodnight voice mail that I can listen to before bed and let me tell you, it is thee most comforting voice mail ever. I'm just praying this next month goes by quickly and I have him in my arms again as fast as possible. 

Well we're not even engaged yet but...

I've basically planned our wedding and yes I know I'm absolutely insane for looking ahead but a girl could dream right? I know we're definitely getting married... not sure when we're getting engaged but I have an idea... but probably a year till we tie the knot. Here are some of my ideas:

Guestbook Stones- I think it's a great idea. You can have it on display at home, unlike a regular guestbook where you would barely ever look at it again.

inexpensive center piece 

The Air Force Wife: The Importance of MilSO Sisters

The Air Force Wife: The Importance of MilSO Sisters: I am taking a break from school (hurray!) to finally convert this post from thoughts floating around in my head to a *hopefully* comprehe...

First and foremost...

This will be my first blog post and I'm very excited to start this visual of my life for the public. My boyfriend is in fact in our United States Navy but more importantly he is the love of my life and my soul mate. Through thick and thin I'll stay by his side, even over 3,000 miles apart. He is truly my best friend and the best boyfriend I could ever ask for. If anyone has any questions please ask me in the comment section and do not hesitate with any important questions! Thank you for reading and I hope you enjoy my blog!